My Bittersweet Birthday …

Yesterday I turned 49 . Excited I quickly jumped out of bed to start my day , when I felt this overwhelming emptiness in my soul. Something was missing something wasn’t right ! And then I realized this would be my first birthday without my mom.
For 49 years she was the first person that would wake me and wish me a Happy Birthday .
My gut sank as reality hit me that my phone will not ring with my mother’s voice on the other end singing happy birthday to me.
She has been gone since December 22 (ironically on her mother’s birthday) but yesterday it hit me hard and the emptiness was unbearable. Today is the day she gave me life and I felt this connection stronger than ever before.
I as got ready for work I tried to put a smile on my face, I went to my job holding back my tears .
Thank you to all of my family and friends for all of my happy birthdays . But I don’t think I will ever truly have another “Happy”
Mom you are in my heart and every inch of my being and I thank you for giving birth to me.

My beautiful mother…
Happy Mothers Day

I am flying across the country and will be spending my Mothers Day with my son .I will cherish every moment . Your legacy continues. Thank you for teaching me how to be a mom!